Hopelessness At Its Peak Poem by Samantha McKinnon

Kept it inside.
Tonight it exploded, and still no one knows.
You can't even see.
Disappointment and desperation,
Agony and your arrogance,
Love but never, ever hate.
I accepted a nonexistent apology.
I kept my promises, while you made empty ones.
I see all this, and I keep this inside, too.
I run, I starve, I cover up, I expose myself; You don't see.
I try so hard, and it's never enough.
"Almost" you say.
But, as they say,
Almost is never enough.
This is hopelessness on display,
In every possible way.
For I still can't get myself
To hate, regret, or let go of you.