Huhelp? Poem by Liliana EL.

The hug
A hug
Seems to me that I'd feel a spark
Feel a sudden rush
A warmth
Seems to me that it's supposed to be
a feeling of a strong connection
Is it supposed to make me feel better
Make me jump and cry in glee
and twirl around so happy

Because when I hug him
He who I think I love
I feel
Well I don't feel much

Yes there's a warmth that I love
But not much warmth than any other
Yes I feel a happiness
But not so much different than any other

And I'm left to question
if I'm going after the wrong guy

Because for nights
All these past nights
I've been sleeping
Holding him in my dreams
I've been feeling such great comfort
Oh how a warmth comes over me

But this hug
Oh these hugs
How they don't seem to bring much anything

And I'm left to question
Why is this happening this way
How could this be

I felt so sure
I still kinda do I think

Oh forget this thing

But I can't
This is real
He is real, and I think I love him

But what is this feeling
Or rather lack of
That I'm experiencing

Somebody help me
Call the pros

Someone help me
I just need to know
If I should be moving on
Or waiting for another moment

Is he right
Maybe it's just the wrong time

Is he right
Am I wrong
How do I know

I feel so strongly
So attracted
So entwined
But this

Oh why