I Am Ramona And I Am Ramone Poem by Ramona Thompson

Note-Dark fiction or the truth? I will let you the readers decide

I am Ramona and I am Ramone
I am a woman and I am a man
I like the gentlemen and I like the ladies
No, I am not a transexual nor bisexual
What I am is so much more tragic
So much more different then that
A female body
A male mind
Two very bold egos
Clashing inside of one single very confused person

There is no greater hell on earth
This is nothing I would wish on anyone
Not even my worst ememy
Always fighting for control
Within myself
There lurks an angel and a devil
One so good
The other so bad
Frightening me to know
I may never be one complete whole

Not funny
No soap opera storyline
How I wish that it were
I love myself
I hate myself
I'm not even sure if I really know myself
Who am I?
What do I wanna be?
How will I ever know if inside they are always fighting?
Fighting out of control
To be the one in control

You may wanna be cruel
You may wanna make fun
But I beg you please, do not
For this is real
A 100 percent all too true illness of my mind
Started way back when I was young
Too young to cope with the horror of a family friend's betrayal
One split into two
And now until the day I find someone to put me back together again
I am doomed to live my life like this

In secret
In hiding
In my own private Hades
Ramona and Ramone
One body
Two minds
Two puzzle pieces
Broken
Until who knows when or how
I am ever whole again

2008 Ramona Thompson