I Can'T Love You Anymore Poem by Jim Ful

I was going through a little bit of a rough patch with my wife and this beautiful woman just started working at my place of business. We had such an immediate attraction to each other and we fell into such a comfortable and familiar place with one another so quickly. I found myself starting to fall for this woman with such ease. I suspected, even from the beginning, that these feelings I was feeling were not for this charming woman, but they were feelings for my beautiful and wonderful bride being directed at the wrong person... the person I was receiving the attention from that I so greatly craved.

I went through some major depression during those 3 months or so. This woman was all I thought about. We were in constant contact every waking moment of every day. The little beacon being the text notification light of my silenced cell phone. I felt worse than terrible for what I was doing. But this woman, like a drug, gave me that jolt... that elated feeling. The duration of happiness was shorter and shorter every time. I would start crying randomly at work, in my car, upstairs in a bedroom, but the tears just wouldn't come more than a few at a time. I needed to release my ocean. I finally decided to write this poem to get emotions out. It worked. The flood gates opened! I would go out at night jogging for hours, torturing myself, crying as I ran. I would run until I couldn't cry anymore and my body was in as much pain as my heart was, literally almost crippling myself.

In the end... she found a new boyfriend, and I was devastated and left feeling like I lost my heart.... but not for long! Guess what? I was right all along! ALL those feelings I had were not for her! They were for my soul-mate! My wife! Man I love her so much! We got through our rough patch and what a difference! The woman continues to work at my company, but here's the best part... I SEE HER EVERY DAY AND I DON'T FEEL A DAMN THING! ! ! ! !

I haven't shared this poem with my wife, but only with an old distant friend that was going through a love crises of her own. She cried so hard when she read it. I have always wanted to share this poem with somebody, so please accept this out pour of emotions with an open heart and an open mind. Go easy on me too... this is my first real poem!