I Cannot Stand My Own Silence Anymore Poem by Sara Hol

My lips have been sealed
for far too long,
The silence
has grown too familiar.

The pain burns into each side
a reminder; that I am trying to hide.
My trust in men is not that strong,
So I did not expect our relationship to last long.

With my low self esteem
the thoughts I have of myself
are not too keen.

I know you love me,
I love you too...
but I think you could do alot better.

I'm sorry if this breaks your heart
just saying it tears me apart.
So I will end this as fast as I can,
lets be honest
in the end you would have ran.

I am an official walking disaster
that you seem not to see
my secret;
I try to be discreet.

Please let us say our goodbyes
so my silence
is no longer a lie.

I love you,
I am sorry
for all this hurt,
but in the end
you'll understand
why I ran...
and you'll thank me.