I Didn'T Sign Up For This Poem by Becca Bell

This? This thing called love?
This was a challenge I was not up for.
I did not volunteer to go on this horrible journey.
I thought the unexpected coming of love was what made it beautiful
But I'm sorry I ever met you
Ever became friends with you
Ever had more than friendly feelings for you
I'm apologizing to myself of course
You don't deserve an apology
No, not from me.
You make me feel ugly.
I am ugly.
Love is ugly.
What is ugly?
What is love?
Who are you?
I wish I knew.