I Don'T Still Love You. Do I? Poem by Danny D

I am trying to believe that love does not exist.
Hence for your love I wouldn’t persist.
And at the thought of you my heart won’t melt.
And believe it was a lie, the love for you that I felt.

How do I turn my love for you into hate?
And blame everything on my ill fate.
How do I ignore and shut out all that I feel
And shy away from the truth that I got to deal.

Everything you felt about me you say was a lie.
And I for each of those moments was ready to die.
Why did I give you the love that you didn’t deserve?
The love that I kept safe and for so long did preserve.

If love is not real then what is this that I feel.
A feeling so strong, stronger than steel.
I am trying to bind and hide this feeling inside.
For it’s something I can no longer show it outside.

If love is nothing but a silly ugly mind game
Then why does my heart leap at the sound of your name?
Why at the sight of your picture do my eyes still glitter?
When to me you have been nothing but so bitter.

Every moment we shared; my heart with gladness you did fill.
Now the very thought of me, me you want to kill.
Words of hatred and spite you uttered had cut me so deep
Yet I am thinking of you when I close my eyes and go to sleep.

If love is just a phase why do I keep mumbling your name?
I can feel the passion inside like a never ending flame.
You are the soul and essence of every song that I write.
Every love song I hear to you I wish I could recite.

I hope this song that I write you will never read
Don’t want you to know that you I still so dearly need.
Don’t want you to know I carry you in my heart like a secret treasure.
My love for you was never a phase, never a lie, it was pure, I am sure.