I Don'T Understand? Poem by Julietta Isla

I don't understand you God, you took my baby away, she was suppose to be born that very day, i tried my hardest to run to her, my heart raced inside of me, yeah she maybe not mine, but i can't let my own mother raise her on her own, with that baby, my father, out in the middle of the night, drinking to where he can't remember the last time he stopped, i'm running for you my child, hold on baby i'm coming, daddy maybe not sweetie, but don't worry, sissy is here, no more crying now, as i grab hold of her precious little body, blood gushes out her mouth, all i hear is her choking, the doctors take her away from me, and not a minute or two later, her life slipped out of my own fingers, oh so quickly, why God, why did you take my baby sister away from me, now there lies a gapping whole inside of me, where my heart should be, i fall to those white cold floors, screaming in complete agony, WHY, i could of raised her own my own, i don't understand you.....