Alone Poem by Julietta Isla

I can't sleep, knowing your not mine, crying non stop, hoping you will love me for once, drips of red fall onto the cold floor, im suffocating, it feels like a thousand needles jabbing at my head, telling me fight back, the other voice says forget it and stay calm, im two different people, i want you, and need you, but i can't have you, i never use to be this way, i never wanted to be attatched to you so easily, i never wanted to tell you i loved you, now look at me, here crying, slicing through my bare skin, letting the blood all drain away, trying to feel something besides complete emptiness, these scars won't heal so easily, they're deep like the memories we shared, how is it that i fall for the wrong guys and girls, just want to love someone right, and cheerish every single moment i see them, the dark side screams screw the world, the light side whispers dont lose faith in God, now i choose which side i want to be.