I Have Failed Myself Poem by Fernanda Ontiveros

I Have Failed Myself

Rating: 5.0


I have failed myself.
I have failed myself that all I can do is wait.
I have failed myself that when I look you in the eye,
all that I see is yesterday's lies.
I have failed you, my friend, that all that I did was out of focus.
I have failed myself that when I wanted to know you, I wasn't there.
I have failed you, my friend, that when we were together my mind was out of place.
I have failed you my friend that now I'm sick and tired.
and I have failed so many times that all I do now smells like a mistake.
I have failed myself...I have failed myself.

My friend, I have failed you, but you're still here.
Myself, I have failed you,
but you're still here.

And to you my love I have failed, but you are not here.
And you are not here because I failed
and to fail you, my love, is to fail myself, my friend.

And now that you are not here the waiting has become an eternity.
And now that you are not here, I can't look you in the eye.
And now that you are not here,
my life is out of focus.
And now that you are not here,
I don't know who you've become.
And now that you are not here,
my mind is 1,000,000 miles away.
And now that you are not here, like a disease,
I smell you everywhere.
And now you are not here.
Now you are not here.
And I have failed, and I have failed, and I have failed.
And all these failure is all that I am.
And these that I am is not with you.

Monday, May 22, 2017
Topic(s) of this poem: failure
COMMENTS OF THE POEM
Rosie Bourget 06 May 2018

Doubting your ability to handle embarrassment or regret makes the pain of failure last longer. Remind yourself that you can handle failure, and you’ll be more likely to deal with the discomfort it may cause in a productive manner.

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Dr Antony Theodore 28 May 2017

I have failed you, my friend, that all that I did was out of focus. I have failed you, my friend, that when we were together my mind was out of place. and to fail you, my love, is to fail myself, my friend A great self realization in a penitantive mood...... love this poem and your sincere words.. But you shall never fall into selfpity.. selfpity is gift......... arise from the ashes and resurrect. you have a great future in the world of love.. tony

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Bernard F. Asuncion 24 May 2017

Learning from failure makes you succeed... a big 10+++++++

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