I Hide (2) Poem by Amelie Anonymous

I hide behind this image
As this person that you see
Confident and happy
But that’s anything but me

To you I am quite pretty
Soft skin, innocent eyes
But really this isn’t me at all
It’s only my disguise

I’ll hide behind this image
Just so that no one will see
That I cut myself every night
Because I just hate being me

I’ll smile and tell you it’s for show
These bands around my arm
And say that I would never think
Of doing myself harm

But then I walk into the bathroom
And take out another blade
And it wont be until afterworlds
I realize the mess I’ve made

So I sit there for a while
My body feeling numb
I watch my cuts crying out
And wait for real tears to come

I’ll cry just for a little bit
Then wipe the tears from my face
I’ll clean up all the blood I’ve spilt
Don’t want to leave a trace

And then I’ll walk back through that door
And put on another smile
And you’ll never know I fell apart
Just for a little while