I'M Dying Poem by Ray Springer

I sit, silence from my mouth
Pain in my heart, tears from my eyes
All i want is to be happy
I know that true happiness comes in death
But i can only hope for such sweet relief
y life has not yet started and still i want out
I've played safe all my life
I've been obedient, listened, had patience
And even though all it brought me was more disaster one after the other never ending
I have to believe that there is happiness out there for me if i don't I'll not survive
All i want is to feel whole
Not like i will fall to pieces every time I'm in the shower trying to wash away sorrow