I'm Just Doing The Best I Can Poem by Kelvin Rush

A virus with no resistance
A mind game full of deceit
A clever man offered assistance
Then came crashing down at my feet

I was adopted that's what they tell me
My mother she gave me away
I felt a deep-seated sadness
I still feel the pain to this day

I spent a few days with Tommy
He brought me back down to earth
He told me that life is a journey
And I must never doubt my self-worth

He said I was mentally shattered
On the verge of losing my mind
If I didn't change I'd be facing the devil
I must leave all the nonsense behind

I was left feeling quite sad and lonely
Exhausted with nowhere to go
Tormented by I wish and if only
Black thoughts that continued to grow

I drifted from one place to another
I was violent destructive unclean
I carried the shame like a dead weight for years
I was dirty disgusting obscene

I walked in the room like a lion
Determined to avenge my loss
I screamed so loud I stood cocky and proud
But no one in the room gave a toss

I feel like I've now come full circle
I'm back to where it all began
I'm still so confused uncertain
I'm just doing the best I can