I'm Not Sorry Poem by Abdurrahman Ardo

you know what
I don't give a damn
What you think about me
One thing I now for sure
I will never be that person
You want me to be
So rebuke me all you want
I don't care
This piece is not a diss
But I regard it one
To who ever think
I'm talking about him

Case number 4
It's discovered that Optimist
Happened to be a tough nut to crack
He got to change his habit
Well I don't blame you out there
You are all there to judge me
And your verdict is of no importance to me
Because for long I've been trying
To be that person
You so desperately want me to be
I thought I would be happy being that
That my pain will vanish
My suffering will perish
My negativity will tarnish
You know what
Nothing change
It even get worst
Making me more miserable

Like I said
You are all judges
Not counsellors
I won't abide by the laws you set
I don't give a damn about you
You might be a law maker
Making laws for the society
I won't obey your them
I'm not an organ of the society
I live in my own kingdom
Where I live alone
Without king or queen
Without master or slave
Without laws
Just me

Call me all you want
Bully me all you can
I will still be there
Holding the door open
For you to come in
And judge me
I will listen to you
coz I believe
Listening potrays kindness
I'm kind enough to listen to the verdict
After that I appreciate the effort
Adore the courage
Admire the generosity
It's crystally clear
That acknowledging the problem
Is the first step in finding a solution

My response to the verdict is
Raising my middle finger up to them
To you and you and you
To you who want me to be like you
To you who want me to be who you want
To you who judge me
To you who try to use me
To you who calm to be my friend

One thing I want you to know
I will never be that person
You want me to be, Never!
I am who I choose to be
And if I'm happy that way
I guess
I don't need you
To set the rules
So, you do you
I do me

Remember if I make you angry
Upset, irritated or annoyed
I'm not going to apologize
Don't even think of that
I'm not going to say sorry
I'll not waste time
I won't even judge
I'm not like you
I'm not sorry for that
So think all you want
I'm not sorry
I'm out