Secrets Poem by Abdurrahman Ardo

Secrets

This is something I wish to know
A feeling that is decisive to me
Though its a feeling I'm gonna shun
I wish to know it's validity

She's a friend of mine
A close friend for sure
I enjoyed her company
Just like my male friends

She finds it difficult to unravel her mind to me
But she carelessly unravelled to the public
I heard it blown out like the network news
She asked me not to believe the news
That it's just a rumor
Just a bunch of lies

I discard the so called news
Trying to move on
It's like I lost my map
I still hold on to the mystery
Trying hard to unravel it
Like a pirate who made it to the treasure side
But have no spade to dig it out
Coz she won't open up
And I can't force it out against her will

I let it be
Watch her actions carefully
Trying to fish a dime out of it
It still remain a mystery to me
And a secret to her

I didn't figure out that it's real
Till recent
When I give a visit to her house
My visit wasn't for her
he reveal part of the secret to me
Which stab my emotions
Giving me some hints about the secret
And leaving me dumb
Coz at first she was calm
Then disturbed
she wants me to stay more
She wanna throw some words at me
But her catapult won't work
For she didn't have the strength
To pull herself up
And strike at me
We all feel the blues
We are in low spirits
She still bury it inside her
I wish one day she will explode
So I will see the treasure
Without having to dig her up
Without having to strangle her.

I looked forward to a day
In which this secret
Will come out of the closet.