I'M Only Just ____ _____. Poem by Lost River

And I was there when you were, just first ____
They handed you, into my arms.
That was the first time, I'd ever prayed.
Asking only, just help me, keep her from harm.

Then I was there with them again!
At the hospital, you were just so very sick.
I was brave, except I stood all night...Biting my lower lip.
My heart felt as if caught in a bottomless pit.

The two years later, again with them.
They said ok...just tubes in your ears
The third time.... I'd prayed
Asking God please.... Just let her hear...

Then I was there as you learned how to ride your bike.
I remember just so determined...
How you hung in there and tried...
But I was worried, so I ran beside you stride for stride.

And then that day
The day you were hit in the head...with that baseball bat
I remember every thing I did... But that day
My soul said, he just was never coming back.

Then the time you wanted to learn
Just how to Ski...
I looked for my courage
I trusted God, and I paid Mr. Frank Gee.

And the day you learned how to ride a horse.
As you and that pony, you just kicked.
Just up and galloped out of site.
Guess you never seen.
I'd prayed hard by the early morning light...

And then...just the worst day of my entire life!
I'd so many. But of this one, I was sure...
My eyes, my heart, my soul, battled agony and strife.
As you got on that plane

I pleaded father in heaven, please just protect her life.
I never quit praying for one entire year.
Morning, Noon, and Night..
Please... Protect her, with all your might.

Did you know? That He promised me personally.
That everything would turn out alright.

Then that day... The day you picked out...
Your own wedding ring...
That day...I remembered every tiny little thing...
As I turned my eyes just started to sting...
My feet, knees, hands, even in the
middle of my back...
All just... felt, hurt, very bad...

My heart said to my soul...
Just try, not to be, so sad.
I know! I'm not very brave...
But I can't help it. You see...I'm only just the dad.


Clyde Grant Bryson