I'M Tired

I'm tired of being that thing
that you dispise.
I'm tired of being loved by everyone
but you. I'm tired of forgiving, forgetting
and getting over,
Of excusing your abusing.
I'm tired of being clawed at,
snapped at, glared at and
spat at.
I'm tired of giving in,
going back, trying hard.
I'm tired of trying to be better,
tying to speak right,
trying to think like i should
and doing what you want.
I'm tired of smiling with tears.
Two long years.
Lived through ALL my fears.
Nothing left to lose.
Tired of the abuse.