I Need Poem by Noah Body

I need...

I need to put this madness to bed...
I need to excise the dark thoughts...
I need to excoriate this evil....
I need to put it into words
And let it go... into the ether
I need to purge it all...
I need to connect....
God help me, forgive me
But I need someone....
Pitiful, shameful, disgraceful...
I need....
How entirely disgusting....
Need....
I hate the need....
I despise the need....
I... Oh God I know not what
I was going to help others?
I cannot help myself...
A joke... a disgrace....
How pitifully weak....
I need.....
I need this to end.....
Finally, forever....
Just cease
As if it never was....
Simply melt away.....
I need...
What right have I
To expect anyone to care
I need.....
And WGAF?
Not even I.....