I Refuse Poem by Marcquiese Burrell

somewhere the line has to be drawn
If i don't voice my opinion you'll continue to play with my mind
thinking low of me to you i'm blind
Only with time will we find ourselves apart
Because you put little to no energy
no thank you, you can keep your misery
no need for sudden apologies i'm already gone
no need to sympathize with me now i moved on
no more i love you, i miss you, awake in my arms until the break of dawn
you got issues you need to solve
in one night these problems won't dissolve
you fail to see this and I won't pretend everythings perfect
Like failing to give me your full attention
and don't expect for me to feel neglect
Not realizing my words had an effect

but I refuse to give this all my energy
I refuse to be just a memory
I refuse to break my back, night and day, trying
I refuse to lose breaking down and crying
I refuse to take ten steps backwards
from this i'm looking forward
I refuse to ignore the fact i have to brace myself for
the little things you've said of me that you abhor
i refuse, i just can't take this anymore
this isn't my idea of love
just isn't anything i've asked for


Remember when i said to you i loved you
those feelings were reciprocated
fears of mine were eliminated
no, i'm not putting all the blame on you
because i know i've had my moments where
i placed a burden on your heart
too much for you to bear
have you feeling sometimes like i try and pick you apart
my loves sincere please know i care that i don't want you in despair
sometimes we agree and disagree
sometimes even going back and forth
who said loving another person was ever going to be easy?
we got to first struggle to fully understand
each other in within the future will we know
how to handle the other without difficulty
because by that time we've came to accept each other as is,
flaws and all.