I Still Love Him, 'Yet Still Not Sure' Poem by Kgosigkadi Asher Mavuso

Fear is in the eyes of the beholder
Love is the presents of the love maker
So they say
What does that mean?

Love of my life I think I found
The first time I saw him
I got blinded

So blinded
I bumped into him and stepped onto his toe
But he apologized
For I stepped onto his toe he apologized

He said “ oh sorry sisi, I didn’t see you, are you okay”
I said, “ I’m sorry, yimi onyathele wena, I should apologize to you

He offered me a drink and I accepted
He bought me a cheese sandwich
As if he new it was my favorite
As if I new it was his favorite

Love at first site I wont call it

It’s been 3months already
I still don’t know how I feel about him
I still don’t know what to call our relationship

My heart was pumping and pounding
My eyes flooded with tears yet
My soul didn’t drown
My blood was boiling on a cold day
My knees were weak
But my feet were steady

I loved him and I didn’t know
I loved him and I didn’t realize how much

I didn’t feel myself smiling at him
Oh but I’m alone in my room
How wonderful
I felt like I’m on honeymoon everyday
Oh how beautiful to be loved



After romantic loving
A couple of kids we had too
I thought soon it would be
I thought soon he’d say, “Will you? ”

Instead of discovering me on a higher level
He discovered another woman
Maybe she enjoys cheese sandwich like he does.

After many years of loyalty and honesty
We broke up
I still love him but I still don’t know
I still love him yet I’m still not sure


Zanele F Mavuso