I Tried.... But Failed.. Yet Once Again.. Poem by I wish i was as invisable as he made me feel

I tried to smile...
but it felt so wrong...
i don't know why...
i just don't think i should be smiling,
when you can't be here to smile along side of me..
i would give anything ot have you back..
but i don't think i miss you,
i miss the person i thought you were.......
but as i see you with her....
reality hits...
after all my tears...
i see you havent been hurting at all...
you didn't miss me...
i don't think you even noticed i was gone!
God dammit i love you....
why can't you see that? ? ?
I just can't go on baby...
i guess if ur not hurting, and didn't realise i was gone..
there is no point in me being here then? ?
if im nothing in ur eyes,
what's the point in living a life...
i gave you all the love i had...
and now here i am...
all alone..
yet once again........
im over this one time fling...
but it wasn't once was it...
we were the couple of the year you said...
i was ur baby girl...
i was ur everything..
but if i was ur everything and you just left me,
wouldn't you have nothing? ? ?
i highly doubt that...
cos ur standing right infront of me...
with her...........
i can't believe i cried over you..
actually i can.... you were worth those tears...
but your not worth the pain...
but i can't stop it...
i never knew you can keep hurting long after you think you've stopped..
but now i know it's true...
im sorry..
but you left me no choice..........
once again...
love i despise...
and im torn between opening up to you and hurting myself...
answer is obvious...
you wouldn't care about how i feel....
so here i go again...
tell mum i love her..
tell daddy i hate him for what he has done...
give my baby boi lots of kisses...
and as i lie here on my death bed i realise..
most people take thier lives from people that hurt them...
not or the right reasons...
always heart break....
good bye xxxxxxxxxxx