I Used To Be Happy Poem by Elusive Conclusive

I used to be happy but somehow it seems
that the happiness has been drained from me
Its like staring at a black hole in to the abyss
I wonder does happiness even exist
Its been so long now since Ive had the feeling
of laughter, joy, excitement or something to believe in
maybe its a bad time and we all do get down
but to me this has been slow and painful am I in quicksand? will I drown?
I want to go back to a time when things were going well
I was once happy but now it feels like im stuck in a cell
Staring at 4 walls of different colours but the only colour I see
is black and the colour is getting bigger engulfing me
What would I give to see the other colours again
to feel happy or excited instead of this mental heart pain
To some my problems seem silly I think its because they don't understand
but how could they? they haven't seen through my eyes at the bitter torment and pain I have suffered on this land
I cant tell them everything because they would then hurt too
my secrets I take to the grave that's the path choose