I'Ve Seen Heaven Poem by Eman Awad

I tried so hard not to think of you,
but i was already gone to some place i didn't know.
I thought about us all the way through,
our love was dying and i really had to let you go.
I was heading to another direction,
i started to feel the pain of every thing in my life.
You gave me no love and no affection,
i was dying but you were so unaware of my strife.
There are things about me,
that you'll never know but it made me suffer.
I needed you to stand by me,
i needed you to be my shelter and my cover.
We both had our own world,
full of problems and we never shared that.
I awaited this one word,
that'd make me feel that it's not that bad.
But nothing changed and nothing will,
what's the use of our love if we feared each other.
We are standing in that place still,
wishing to, but we're not reaching for each other.
The grass is always greener on the other side,
and i would never lose some thing i never had.
But i've seen heaven and i never left you behind,
that's when you say the same and drive me mad.
Why can't we let go for this one last time?
is it my smile every time we meet? ?
That feeling that kills, knowing you won't be mine,
and some one else will make my heart to beat.
I'm feeling the same way,
it's hard to let go this easily.
But we must part today,
i've to let you go, let go of me...