I Wanna Poem by hopemarie blankenship

as i lay
here
in the dark
i'm thinking about
the things i
wanna say

there's so many
things
that you don't know
so many things
that i need to
tell you

there's so much more
beyond
what happened a few
months past
that would explain
why i act the way
i do

i wanna tell you
what wrong
with me sometimes
iwanna tell you
the things
i'm scared of

i wanna tell you
what makes
have flash backs
and wake up screaming
in the middle of the
night

i wanna let you know
just how bad
that i've been hurt

i wanna tell you the
thoughts that
i have that would
make your head
cringe with worry

i wanna telll you
all the stupid stuff
that i've done to
try and ease the pain
although it never
works

i wanna tell you
all the trauma
i've been through
the past two years

i wanna let you know
that there are some
things that i
just won't do
because it
brings up the past

i wanna tell you
that when i
get mad
sometimes i just
really need
to know i'm loved

i wanna tell you
about what
happened
with my parents
and whats wrong with
my mom

i wanna let you know
how much
i love you
and how much you really
do mean to me
i wanna let you
know just how much
i care

you see things
have never went
my way
i've never been
lucky
i've alweays had
tyo work just to amke it
through one day

i wanna show you
my feelings about
the things in, life
but thats impossible
to do

i wanna make oyu
realize
that some things i do
not because i want to
but
because i have to

i wanna tell you
how happy
i am that
your in my
life

iwanna tell you
about the horror
films of things
that i've seen
replaying in my mind

i wanna tell you
how unwanted
i feel
sometimes

i wanna tell you
that when
i act jealous
i'm just worried
about
losing you

i wanna tell you
everything
but i'm scared
to

i wanna let you
complely in my
life
but i don't know how