I Wanted Poem by Justin Fitzpatrick

When I was young
The first thing I wanted to be
Was an astronomer
To find infinity

Then the next thing
I think I wanted to be
Was a superhero
Not knowing they were imaginary

Then after that I wanted to be
A sports athlete
One who was great
And made history

Then in school
When they asked me
What I wanted to do
I confided, ‘Not a single clue.’

Then it didn’t take long
For the future to take me
And no longer did I think
In terms of what I wanted to be

I thought of what I wanted
What would make me
Happy

So first I wanted money
Thinking it would solve
All of life’s predicaments
But I realized that was wrong

Then I wanted a car
Thinking if I had one
I’d always be traveling
But I never really got very far

Then I simply wanted things
Miscellaneous they were
Placed them around the house
But they also weren’t the cure
I wondered what it took
To be content
Everything I obtained in life
Simply came and went

Then what I realized
Deep within my core
Things still left me lonely
And that’s what I didn’t need anymore

So the last thing I wanted
Was someone for me
Someone to love
To make me happy

And though I tried
It seemed not to be
For I may have had things
But more I had insecurities

In the end
What came to be
Was for all the things that I had wanted
Nobody ever wanted me