I Was Jus Hopin Poem by Shilesha Johnson

I was jus hopin to receive your call tonight
Exactly when the clock struck nine
I was jus hopin for you to actually care
Was hopin that you’d miss having me there
I was jus hopin that you and I could talk
That you wouldn’t care what the circumstances ever were
I was jus hopin to at least be missed
That you’d show that you never wanted to let go of this
I was just hopin things that aren’t going to happen
And when they do now
I wouldn’t have been wantin
I was jus hopin for things that I would actually do
But like I always used to say when you’d compare
“I’m not you”
And you are not me
So I can’t hope for those things