I Wish Poem by Elsa Bear

it was all my fault,
i broke my heart as well as his
i hurt as much as he did.
three times.
three times i did it because i didnt know.
i didnt know i loved him.
i didnt know i cared so much,
i'd hurt so much, i'd cry so much.
it really was a scene from a movie
the scene that breaks your heart,
the scene that makes you cry,
the scene that shouldn't have happened.
we're friends. i think.
i miss him. i think.
he misses me? maybe.
i wish.
i can't tell.
i can't take back what i did and said.
i wish i could.7 months ago i was happy.
we were happy. i wish we still were.
i wish i could take back the birthday i missed,
the anniversary i missed,
i kisses i missed,
the cuddles i missed,
the happiness i missed,
i wish.