I Wish, I Want, I Am Poem by Maya Hanson

Today
I could escape
I could become someone better
But I’m standing here watching
from the end of the road,
watching the chariot disappear
ever
so
slowly
until suddenly it’s gone

What are the steps
to fulfill a dream?
Why are they
so hard to climb?
Why are their mysteries wrapped up so tightly
and why am I even alive?

Keeping miracles hidden up my sleeve
Oh, tell me what’s worse than that?
Trying and hoping for a thought
that could never be
Running and covering no distance
Leaving my heart in the dust
but still I’m here, for some reason
A reason I can’t describe

What are the steps
to fulfill a dream?
Why are they
so hard to climb?
Why are their mysteries wrapped up so tightly
and why am I even alive?

In the darkness
in a parallel reality
I reach for a dream
Is the dream smoke
or a tangible idea?
Is it time
for me to fulfill it?

What are the steps
to fulfill a dream?
Why are they
so hard to climb?
Why are their mysteries wrapped up so tightly
and why am I even alive?

I’m trying harder now,
aim for the sky
Living something different from yesterday
Take a wish made of shavings
and turn it to wood
Build your own house made of dreams

What are the steps
to fulfill a dream?
Why are they
so hard to climb?
Why are their mysteries wrapped up so tightly
and why am I even alive?

Dreams, possibilities
they’re not wasted on me
I try and I scream from inside
But I know someday
this won’t be in vain
I wish.
I want.
I am.