I Wonder.... Poem by Michelle Dickson

I wonder what my purpose is;
I wonder why I’m just existing;
And I wonder why I want to kill myself.

Everyday these thoughts come into my head.
I try to contradict them, but they just keep coming.
I try to tell myself that I have things worth living for,
But they just don’t seem to be enough anymore.

I wonder what my purpose is;
I wonder why I’m just existing;
And I wonder why I want to kill myself.

Everyone tries to understand how I am.
They try to reason with me,
And tell me that there is more to life that what I can see.
But I just can’t see what they see.

I wonder time after time.
I wonder day after day.
Will this be the last?

Will I go out in a crash
Will I overdose on pills
Will I hurt myself just for the thrill.

Even I do not know the answers
Even I cant answer these questions
But what I do know is that
One day it will happen.