I Wonder Poem by Cherry Blossom

I wonder how it feels for the poem to be written and thought well off by the poet.
I wonder how the painting feels to be admired and mesmerized after being drawn by the painter.
I wonder how the smartest always gets recognized and not the smart.
I wonder how the comforted feel after being comforted by the comforting.
How does the understood feel when they get understood by the understanding?
I wonder how it feels to be a part of the picture for I am always behind the camera being the photographer.
I wonder how it feels to be enough when all I'm doing is my best but will never be enough.
The best always gets loved, praised and appreciated but the good are left behind in the side lines.
I wanted to be the receiver but all I get in return is to give away.
I wanted to feel loved so I became loving but never did it come.
I'm always here and by their side but I'm always never noticed, always being outshined by the sun for I am only the moon.
I wanted to be dreamt of but I guess I'm only the dreamer.
I wonder how the people I smiled at feel when I smile at them.
They say I'm determined to do things, but not determined enough.
Always being said "you did your best, but you can do better".
I changed to be kind but I will never be the kindest.
I tried to be calm but always seen as angry.
I wanted to be a god but I'm stuck on being an angel.
I wanted to be the one, but I'm stuck on being an option.
They say I shine but I never get the chance to be in the spotlight.
I always hope for them to receive good news, but they never hope for me.
I wonder how it feels to be the story, to be imagined, to be read thoroughly, to be an inspiration, but I always write.

I wonder how you feel, but I can't.