I Wonder Poem by alysha renee'

sittin here wondering why it took u so long to see,
i was in love..., lust..? ...no matter
but i wonder had i not asked yet a simple question,
would u have known, would i have known
a simple question, that had i not been dying to tell you,
of my unrequited love for u....
if only then had i not spoken the words i did speak-
would i still be feeling this pain now....?
i wonder had i gathered the courage to say what i did quite sooner,
would you no longer be hers, ..... but mine?
maybe i shouldn't wonder, i should exclude my mind from the outside world and imprison these forbidden thoughts, after all they have caused so much pain....but also happiness, joy
so these unforbidden thoughts are a full blown crisis yet and still a miracle
but indeed i do still wonder- simple things of course like wondering do u still care
wonderin if your'e feelin the same unadultured, undulated streams of emotion as the words flow free from my mind to my pen inducing my love for you..
though now after this there shall be no more questions....no more wondering