I been up,
Contemplating if i'm living right..
Wondering if Ima make it through the day & night.
Choices I made never shaped into a better life,
Why did I ever try?
Suicides weighing heavy on my mind.
Trying to get clean
But I cant figure it out,
Ritalin inside veins
I been sick as a child.
Finding different ways,
couldn't get to set him down,
Obnoxious & Loud,
F*** it lets just kick him out!
I felt like I really just misunderstood.
I wanted to be good, You see,
I tried all i could,
but the rules that you applied
didn't do him no good,
Well F*** it
Ima raise myself
Do my own parenthood...
I cant even lie, S*** that failed too.
I started doing drugs back before high school,
I heard that's the way to get people to like you,
Now their on pace to be just like you...
A little piece of S***
You been that way since an infant,
Why do you pay attention to what other kids get,
If you would focus on yourself
& realize what your gift is
You could have life wrapped up,
Bow & its Christmas.
I'm done using apps to generate a wish list,
To fix this broken life, ima create a business.
Write about it 1st, speak it into existence,
its a far shot from here, but we're gaining in distance.
Im making changes in my life,
I can take it from here,
no more checking the mirrors,
my destination is clear,
no more waiting,
all this anticipation is fear,
WE TAKING OVER THIS YEAR!
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.I would like to translate this poem