If God Is Real He Must Be Me Poem by Balint Nagy

I wake up every morning and feel exactly the same
I battled with depression, I defeated the pain
But my wounds will never fade away
Am I going in the right direction anyway?

I'm so tired of this daily bullshit
Everybody tryna tell me maybe I should change
They say "stop being so dramatic,
You better start act your age"
I wonder where the hell were they,
On my most traumatic days?
They keep testing the borders of my rage
I'm a perilous monster trapped inside a cage
Better listen when I say:
I'LL NEVER FUCKING CHANGE

It's all because of my ego,
I know there's no way out
This time I will not bow
I'm turning into good now

It felt like I was going nowhere
And I am trapped inside a maze
So I established my great escape
I don't believe in destiny
Yeah, I don't believe in fate

For so many years I've sought for attention
Thought something was missing
But trust me when I say I'm fine
I am finally alive
Never been in a better state of mind

No looking back, no more regrets
Nobody can kill me
I'll die by my own hands
Feel free to hate me
You cannot change me

It's all because of my ego,
I know there's no way out
This time I will not bow
I'm turning into good now

CANNOT BREAK ME DOWN MOTHERFUCKERS!

At the end of my wanderings
I recognized the only thing I believe in
If God is real, he must be me
IF GOD IS REAL HE MUST BE ME

It's all because of my ego,
I know there's no way out
This time I will not bow
I'm turning into good now