The Last Poem by Balint Nagy

{Introduction speech}
I know a quite long time passed, but I think I just can't get over it.
It's so though.
Cigarette; booze; pills; whatever.
It doesn't matter because:
A part of me has died, a piece of my heart has taken so I am totally broken but I remember what Lana said:
"It takes getting everything you ever wanted and then losing it to know what true freedom is." But I don't feel free.
I'm afraid I'll never feel free ever again.
It's too late.
Maybe it's weird but one day you will understand.
One day you will recognize that nothing can surprise you anymore.
Only one thing for sure: we all gonna die.
And we die alone.
Everybody
We born alone and we die alone.
No exceptions.
For my part; I will die young I know.
{…}

At the end of this journey
It's time to find something new
But some passion is still burnin'
Because I remember you

The pain what I feel
Makes me so real
I lose my mind here
No way to heal

So I let it all go
I just want you to know

Even when my time comes
I can't forget the fairy things you've done
It seems you will be my only loved one
I can't be angry; I'm so dead and empty
So, don't keep me in your memory
You are better off without me

I know this is a drool
And I never meant to be cruel,
But
I was your guardian angel
Now I'm only a stranger

So I let it all go
I just need you to know

Even when my time comes
I can't forget the fairy things you've done
It seems you will be my only loved one
I can't be angry; I'm so dead and empty
So, don't keep me in your memory
You are better off without me

Forgive me, now matter how hard I tried
I couldn't forget the hurt you caused inside

So I let it all go
But I really need you to know

Even when my time comes
I can't forget the fairy things you've done
It seems you will be my only loved one
I can't be angry; I'm so dead and empty
So, don't keep me in your memory
I will die without you,
You will die without me


{Ending speech: }
Here I am at the edge of the world.
I thought somebody will be here with me, but I'm standing alone as always.
It's never gonna change.
I can't see the end of this road yet
. I don't know when it will end, I don't know what's gonna happen, I don't know what is waiting for me.
I only know one thing: I never want to go back there.
Maybe it's a runaway from my problems but these problems have totally broken me, and I can't get over them, can't live with them.
I am undone.
So I guess this is a last goodbye.
You all know: 'It will take a lifetime......'

Goodbye.


P.S. I'll never forget you.