If I Die Poem by Milton Sousa

If I die, don't cry for me
If I die, don't look for answers
because i've been trying to give them
when I looked for help
you did not give a damn.

Life is beautiful
some are born to enjoy
others to regret it
If you don't go with the flow
you might get drowned
in the sickness
in the manipulation
in the disguised prophets
of youth retaliation.

I'm trying
every night I try
to speak
to think
better than yesterday
but you come to haunt
play tricks in my mind
like it is a day job
that you don't even get paid.

Father, see me
not your god
but my father
who went too soon
to leave me here in search
for something that cannot be found
it hurts me to see
that this is not a poem
but a suicide note.