If Only I Had Listened Poem by Heather Kemper

I'm finding you were right dad
all this time I've been so wrong.
You predicted and you nailed it
I should have listened all along.


No one could love me
not enough to want to stay.
I am to broken and to flawed to care for
to be anything in any way.

Not worthy enough to fight for
not to see forever's light.
A failure a disappointment
only darkness there is no light.

You told me I should have listened
I had nothing worthy enough to give.
If I had I wouldn't be here
wishing I had never been.

Knowing that he loved me
and thought I was worth the fight.
But time went on and he realized
I brought for him misery not light.

Slowly I poison those who love me
and with disgust they look away.
if I had listened and not allowed them
their lives wouldn't have been hurt that way.

So what now are my choices
my options in this life?
To never again be poison
choking out all life.

You knew I would be this
no good in me to give.
So tell me what's the reason
I should continue
to allow myself to live?