Im Worthless And I Want To Die Poem by Brandon Hoeg

When i look in the mirror disgust is my only reaction
ive brought this on my self by user actions
im scared of myself, and i hate who i am
im scared what i would do if i had a knife in my hands
probably jab out the rest what i have in my chest
give it to someone who can corress whats left and who can hold it the best

if i could end this all today i'd be f*cking glad to
so what if you love life it doesnt mean i have to
use your strength while you can cause you wont get tougher
ill be the one with a smile as i watch you all suffer
so take out a gun, have some fun, blow your brains out now cause its only begun, dont waste time fully loading cause you only need one, swallow what you have left pull the trigger and be done

so now you wonder, you wonder why this kid is such a blunder
why the pain strikes like lightning and the anger erupts like thunder.
maybe its cause when i was little my mommy never hugged me, my daddy never loved me, the place i lived when i was a kid was so beautiful and lovely, or maybe its the pain that f*cking drives me insane, why cant i f*cking win this game, im nothing but an evil stain, that needs less fire and more rain. or maybe im a coward who cant take whats served, i dont work hard enough for anything to be earned, i dont have enough fuel for the bridges to be burned, so im done with this life i'll give someone else a turn, and ill run, I f*cking hate you all im done