In The Clouds Poem by Rachel Brewer

I’m writing this for my family and friends.
And reading this means, I’m gone.
For that I am truly sorry, but I honestly didn’t see another way.
I hated life, and the world, so I left it.
Don’t worry about me now, I’m safe and loved, I swear.
I’m in a better place, I know, what a cliché right?
But for me, anything would have been better than my life on Earth.
It was full of pain and anger and I didn’t understand why.
So when they lay me in the ground, don’t cry or be sad,
Because I’m not.

I would like you to do something for me though.
I want you to open your eyes, and look at the world.
Look at the life you are living and answer this question;
‘Is it really worth it? ’
I asked myself that question, and my answer was; ‘No.’
I didn’t see the point of this life if all there was, was pain and fear.
Fear of wars and accidents, and evil.
The evil in the world that is growing every day.
How many of you are afraid of walking alone?
Or afraid of driving late at night?
I know I was, afraid of everything, but not this.
Of dying the way I did.
I took control, I had all the power.
No some random psychopath or a freak accident.
I had the power to take my own life when and where I wanted, and I did.

So please don’t feel anything bad because this was my choice.
My decision, and I made it to ensure my happiness.
Because I couldn’t have suffered another day in that world.
You don’t have to feel sad that I’m gone,
You just have to remember that I was here, and you knew me.
Remember how much I love you, and that I will keep loving you,
Until you can join me,
Then we will be safe, together again.
In the clouds, forever.