Insanity Poem by Samantha Torrez

So insane I try not to cry,
So hurt but I'm done asking why.
Life isn't easy for anyone so I try not to pity myself,
Especially when all I'm looking for is help.
Could I be slowly going insane?  
Should I leave this town? Should I change my name?
No, not now, not ever.
My heart beats now hard & fast.
forgetting love,  I've won the race in last.
My mixed up life keeps going to hell,
Wondering how I can make this different on myself.
Easier maybe, I plea.
For someone, maybe me, to set myself free
I've never been so afraid of you
When you play with your fire
When you leave me only to cry at night with downfalls of desire.
You scare me when you raise your voice too high
My heart races, unsteady breathing constantly asking myself why.
How is this love if all we do is hate each other?
When did you become my biggest enemy?
Could you forgive yourself for being so cruel, so putrid?
Leaving me to cry each night begging for your sympathy.
I'll forgive you easily, as soon as you come back,
Maybe for once we can talk,
Without you throwing your fire blinding my hopeless track.