Insight Of My Life Journey Poem by treesa dimple

When i was a kid, my world was small
My mother and my brother were my beloved
When started going school, tried to walk like am big enough
talk to friends as if i know everything, pretend as a little one before parents

I started learning about God from sunday schools
I loved jesus when i was in catechism class
When am there i wanted to help poor, i wanted to gain jesus love
but it would last till the bell rang.

Years went i came to town, i began to see things with my wide opened eyes.
I wanted to be somebody's favourite always.
Tried hard to pick one as my favourite
Show my love to them as my weapon
Used to fight with them to know how much they care me.

Started feeling lonliness when one of my favourite left me
Took vow now and then not to pick any favourites
Will break when i found one.
Again and again this continued

Learned biology when i was teen
Had interest in mind to know more
But acted as if am not interested to learn
Thinking that is the level of good girls.

Guys, nightmare of my teen nights
Spoiled my good time with their deeds
Hide anguish over them from my mother
Started hiding things from my beloved

Hmm as time went on things quite changed
I came out of my sweet home for my higher studies
Got to know many new things which i never learned
Literally enjoying the freedom

Now guys became my favourites
I will be so sincere to gain their friendship
But they played games with me for their beloved
Hatred mind i started 'different relation' with one guy

Relation ends on things which should not happen
Time snatched virginity
Damn i was changing from that day
Always wanted it to be a bad dream