When Heart Pains Poem by treesa dimple

I looked into his eyes
strong faith on him, he will not leave me
but when train moved i felt slowly
am leaving my life behind.

it was such a feeling
i never realized before
mix of hate and love
a feeling of betrayed and declined

how can a mother loves her baby
i pampered him in my heart alike
slowly watching him growing to success
overjoyed on his accomplishments
hurted when he start argued for silly things

My heart aching, head bursting
what shall i do now
i am able to forgive but
could not forget anything


Felt scared on unanswered calls
life showed me multiple ways to escape but
my crazy heart not willing to accept
still it is pushing me to the same dark cave.

I am selfish only on my pain and joy
i could not count a day leaving
not thinking about him
where ever i go whomever i talked
i see him feel him
even i feel touched when somebody does it

i lauged again and again
to get rid of the haunting memories
Fed up with the life plans and strategies
conditions set for happy life ahead
Embarrassed on his narrowmindedness
sometimes the same to myself too

Time passed away, i just looked around
people bounded to me suffered a lot
i do not know how long i can carry
this much pains and vain
Praying for the day to come soon to say 'enough'.

When the day of defeat comes
i will accept my failure over my lost life
if one more birth i want to be a flower
for only one day with sorrows and joy.