Is It So Bad? Poem by arianna strickland

Is it so horrible that I can't feel?
That i cant open up to anyone anymore?
why is it that I feel that everything i do is wrong?
I have hurt so many friends and so many people that i cant remember why i bother trying.
I cant stand myself anymore.
i destroy everything i touch....
im sorry i cant let my self close to anyone cause every time i do i get hurt...
if im not around anymore or i don't talk allot please don't worry..
im trying to not hurt you im trying to not let u get close.
and if by chance you find me and i mean the real me then try not to break me..
im already fragile and im already hurting...
my face may be smiling but inside im dieing.
out side i my be laughing and flirting but inside im crying and fighting.
there are three different parts of me angry me sad me and the me i pretend to be
hopefully you have only met the me that i so despreatly wish to be...
im so sorry