It Is All About Time Poem by James Darwin Smith II

May time be of sweet essence?
Many trials I have consumed
Battles upon battles
Becoming harder and harder
Still I refuse to lose


These tears have fallen
Many different ways
From sadness to frustration
To the joy of being loved
Without being judged
As this soul was seen for what it truly is


So many struggles I must confess
Never have I been like anyone else
Once felt left out years ago
Now adapting the best that I can
Testing all of this will and fortitude
While attempting to put these thoughts
Into my own personal refuge


Praying for a promising destination
Though I should be proud
Of where I came from
A silent escape
An invisible presence
As many could never see me
Even when I was in plain view


I always could make myself disappear
Even when it was never my intent
Safety inside my own world
As the world outside passes on by


Still, I fight
Too stubborn to stay down
The clear skies bless me
Upon peaceful dreams of love's honest intent


So what if I am locked
Within my own imagination
It is the only escape that I have


Please know I struggle
No sympathy needed though, in fact
Trying hard to be more successful in life
Giving more than I ever have before
Wondering though will that ever be enough?


Time goes on
Sorry, I will never be like everyone
Cannot shapeshift into perfection
Yet, why would I want to?
I wear these flaws strong and proud
Even in my lowest of moments
Being deformed upon this own mindset


So now what is next?
What is true success?
For me it is something sacred
Something that turns sad faces
To warm beaming energies of light
Spreading happiness all around
Yes, that is true success


Here I am
Dreaming all the dreams that I can
Trying to catch them inside this heart
So I can be more important
Than I am right now


But everything is on me
No excuses, none at all
Just trying with all my might
Trying to give the best that I could ever give
All to make those who need help
To feel better than they could have ever felt before


I wish I was all soul, No flesh
So I can show the world who I truly was
But for now I live
Doing all my best to stay strong


May time be of sweet essence?
Perhaps someday I will find out
Going where the positive air goes
Sailing on with all the aspects of love


Perhaps someday
I will feel like I truly belong
It is all up to me
Absolving self
Of the things I have never done
Finally living life at its fullest
And having so much fun


May time stop so I can catch new moments?
This I would like to know


What do I do next?
Heart and mind tell me where to go
Open up and travel beyond
My own wildest consent
And even going beyond that
Well away from this comfort
Never fearing what will happen next


I have never traveled the world
Someday, I would love to do so
As there was always more time
Than I could ever of known


Life, Take me to the great unknown
I need something new in this redundant life


Time, May you bless me
With something I have never done before
Time, may we both be on each other's side
Come on, let's go!
What are we waiting for?


It is all about Time