Just A Little Of That Poem by Alexander Shaumyan

No strong loving feelings,
No passionate kiss-
Just a little of that
And a little of this.

Some may say I look calm
When I'm actually not-
Feeling somewhat off keel,
Somewhat tied in a knot.

Someone, give me a rope,
Not some friendly handshake-
I've lost purpose and hope-
Let me jump in a lake.

In this pointless quagmire
That some people call life,
I've lost all desire,
All the will to survive.

I'm tired of everything-
All I hear and see-
That surrounds me daily,
That I carry with me.

If I only knew how
A new flame to ignite-
Something great to believe in-
Something honest and bright.

But it's all the same crap
On a different day-
Just another dull slogan,
Just another cliché.

I get tired of hearing
Someone's ultimate truth-
What has happened to freedom
And spontaneous youth?

Lost in smugness of atheism
And the Christian noise,
I just want liberation
Of my own true voice.

I don't want to be shouting
Empty lines: 'Yes, we can! '-
In the end, it's all bullshit
And a man's still a man.

While the beauty is drowning
In the starry night sky-
Where there is no pretense,
No sham, no lie.

I just want to be carrying
This torch through the night
Till the morning awakes me
With sun's brilliant light.


May 3,2009