Kashan Poem by Nassy Fesharaki

Kashan

Have two guests
-unwanted
-and wanted
-in two hands…
-and I call to report:

"Fraud…"
"Fraud…"
"Fraud…"

Sohrab is my guest and
-has written masterpiece
-"Sound of the water's footstep, "
-I feel like it is wine
-I read and get drunk
-hallucinated with drug
-oracle and trance

Must call the "Visa card"
-and report the fraud,
-is good for bank and card

"I was in Toronto
-had exam…
-Purchase-bill
-reports me
-in Quebec! "

"Fraud…"
"Fraud…"
"Fraud…"

Bombs
-terror
-and blood
-in Tehran

In my thoughts
-I fly
-to Kashan
-see poet, Minister and my dad
-his shovel is small
- (called: "Bilcheh")
-hands cracked
-cuts, blood
-to feed us
-with halal
-of his work

He
-I mean "Dad, "
-is victim of flood
-so works hard
-in Bid-Gol
- (of Kashan…)
-digs deep wells for water
-the owner is great, and friend
-as a child I got lost he helped dad
-called police, I was saved

And I walk in plains
-on blades
-of grass
-among the branches
-of trees
- (Cannot find them here…)
-exist in memories
-in Iran
-our village
-and Kashan

Nostalgia
Nostalgia
Nostalgia

Tears form
-in my eyes
-in my heart
-and in mind

"Oh damn you…"
-want to shout
-want to say
-to the eyes
-and to hearts
-and brain

"Accept it…do accept…yes accept…"
-I nag, whine:
-"…it was then, now here…"
-"…fruit are very rare…"
-"…apples are everywhere…"
-"…cherries, peach and grape…"
-"…can be found near fall…"

Nostalgia
Nostalgia
Nostalgia
"Oh damn you…"
-want to shout
-want to say
-to my eyes
-and to heart
-and brain

All are lost
-or are dumb
-or are deaf

I cry
-and cry
-and cry

All alone…
Sad
Sad
Sad

Therefore shout:
-"Damn Sohrab…"
-comes to mind
-he, Sadeq and Samad
-and the note on Iran
-"Arians are in love…
-…with sorrow…and sadness,
-… nostalgia…depression…"

I approve
-"It is right! "

Look at me
-in mirror

Search for wine
-need Hafez
-am tired
-retired
"Oh damn you…"
-want to shout
-want to say
-to my eyes
-to my heart…
-and brain

Nostalgia
Nostalgia
Nostalgia

Sad
Sad
Sad

Tears
Tears
Tears

Cry
Cry
Cry

Come the fish
-and swim
-in ocean
-salt water
-of tears
-not river

Tear
Tear
Tear