Leaked Memories Poem by Angela Bontle Ditumiso

I keep spurting memories like a sneeze as if I can't hold it in
Maybe I have to do it, I have believed in freedom long enough not to hold back when truth tickles my throat wanting a way out

But lately, I've been leaking memories of a past I never wanted to confront
Like how my aunt died and for seven years I didn't want to believe it
And when I was ready to face it,the only thing I did was to want her back and to blame myself

My present is full of leaked memories
I try to talk about how my day was
But find myself five years into the past
I dig up my history to find comfort there
But I know I can never find comfort there