Life In My Eyes Poem by KrIsTiNa CoTTo

When will I stop feeling like this? When will I ever stop being so sad? When will I ever stop looking in the mirror and wishing my face my body my mind was different? I live my life the same everyday and it is slowly stopping my heart.I don't need proof that Im slipping in the cracks as I cry. I sit and sob to the pillow and pour out little bits of my heart more and more. What am I supposed to do with my life? As I sit I think to myself and Honestly there is no point my existence. Ive done wrong and I only do wrong. Im not good at letting go of my anger or stopping my attitude and you don't like that about me. You wish you met the real me. The real me who I don't know who that is. My presence is rotten to you and you cant stand me. Well what if I cant stand me either? What if I hate me? What I see me as a terrible person with no life and no point at all no reason in this whole entire world to be here? What if I want to die? Who wood stop me? All I am is sad and angry. Once in awhile I shed a smile and a laugh but how long will that really last? You try to fix me but maybe im a toy that is to old to be fixed, maybe im to old to be fixed. Maybe im worn out and all used up. Maybe my life is over. Maybe no one will care. Maybe no will notice. Maybe it is for a reason that I leave this world. Im alone. That was my fear, to be alone. It is scary.My mouth opens but there is nothing that comes out of it. Quiet as usual and no one there beside me.You took the life that was meant for me. You took it and you took everything I was and am. You took my breath and used it and I was breathless. You left me there in the road and I turned around over and over again and yet you just never came back. You said your goodbye and yet my torn apart. I have the sickening image of you face in my mind and I want it gone. It means nothing. Im alone in this world with me up against the world. Im fighting for the right to be happy and live. You took the life that was meant for me. You took it and you took everything I was and am. You took my breath and used it and I was breathless. You left me there in the road and I turned around over and over again and yet you just never came back. You said your goodbye and yet my torn apart. I have the sickening image of you face in my mind and I want it gone. It means nothing. Im alone in this world with me up against the world. Im fighting for the right to be happy and live.