Living Off Venturing Enigmas Poem by James Darwin Smith II

Wondering through the ashes
Of a once burning cause
Lost before found in oblivion
Dumbfounded in doubt
Oblivious in clout
Weaker than once thought
But now, strong, somehow


We live inside a paradox
Many never knew even existed
As they praise the simplest of things
Cheering all that they can understand
As the true enigmas in life fade away
Dying for something beyond, today


Many dreams have died
By the hands of over simplistic fantasies
The strong ego of vanity
Momentum towards idle progress
Respecting opinions that have been purchased
By the death dealers of easy access
The desires that feels great at the moment
But hurt badly in the end of all nothing to come


The lone artist feels plundered
Not for possessions of a superficial nature
But things that can be for free
To be asked
Why are things the way
That they seem
Or are they different
In some sort of metaphoric condition


The world sees success
By ways of pizazz

Looking the part
Seems to help
But feeling it?
That is the truth
Of what we all
Should strive for
Beyond our own comprehension


Art is expressed
In so many different ways
Even things people may overlook
In a world full of pop culture monotones


Beauty is something to behold
But flaws are what make things
Organic with unlimited substance
As some things
That may seem beautiful to me
May seem ugly to most

Yet, who is deemed almighty to keep score?

I just live to be me
In a world
Where I see sanity
As being crazy


No longer do shallow labels
Faze me
I am proud to be incomplete


And through the ashes
I burn like a broken winged phoenix
That yearns to fly again
At the same time
Ponders on how long
It has been
And will there be a fear of heights


For new heights I dream
To be different than anything before
Flying beyond any frustration
That froze this personal progress
As I wane off this pain
Fighting for something
Beyond just metaphors
Alone


I can be something
Or anything
No idea how
I just want
More in life than
What I have now



Nothing fancy
Just myself
Maybe, the world
Is not enough for me?
Or is everything in reverse?
Who knows?



I just need answers
Even if I cannot understand
Any of them, at all


All I want in life
Is so much more


Where do I go from here?



Living Off Venturing Enigmas
Where do I go from here?