Lonely Reason, Hibernal Season Poem by Katerina Val

Solitary defense
drenched to the distant eyes of a personal attack
and honesty resents
grudges for tiny fragments, shards of wounded innocence
sadness

Such a sweetness disorienting your blissful kiss
such a 'heat' I guess I cannot and do not wish to reach
that is why cold hearts stay endlessly so still
for they can hear the pain within
for the dead unwilling thing they should not reach

Sitting in a cracked verse of postponed decision
using things and faces to strengthen a possible collision
sudden, scared and hidden behind your true derision
of metal thoughts
iron colds

A comfort, a convenience that you throw
instistance on the black breaths signed on the shatter
if i cant break it I cannot matter
if the glass is so steady I cannot concern your eyes
painful thoughts, lost beats that I loved, dressed in lies

You can hate me for this lonely reason
the confession that crosses consciously your thought
atheists can still laugh sarcastic before the cold
but you are not one of those
you still trust the destruction of the thing you cannot hold

I dropp my sanity against your pretentious skin
its still mine, the healthy in the lie, the healthy in this sin
so I dropp my fake complete
to you, like a poisoned arrow to your poor warm head
like a burning shadow to what you cannot understand

my bleeding open hell

so you can still hate me for this lonely reason
but honey, see, we changed the season

Frantic pieces of a poetic fire growing in your skin
scorching your so true reality
covering the destroyed heart, speaking instead of me
with words of consolation
how deluded baby you can be

Frickles of a shredded moon, I am bathed by an undamaged sin
I am healthy within, but still interrupted for this healthy sin
a cute sad madness choosing me
you, misunderstaning my exhausted soul
melancholy

Let me follow the light, please
forgive me I don't care for falling pride
but forget me and just watch me following this sparkling sight
but alone
I am a loner, so cover me with the sorrowful dark of dawn

Let me find the antidote
but convince me that I am strong
for, healing comes from a deluded song
the one I keep singing, everynight to my crying soul
so I can tame the beast I didn't, never feed

So I can hide the heat I didn't, never feel
so I can hide my fist, I didn't never really drench in injury
they did, you did
deluded
I can still be

So I can hear the sound I didn't, never kill
so I can handle the hate I didn't, never breed
so hate me for being real
hate me for hiding behind
your deluded peal
we are all silent inside
that is the truth friend
but we don't know it
and that is the reason why we still kneel
before hell.