Longing For Life Poem by ash enslow

When i feel all hope has finally lingered
too far beyond my reach
i sit down with myself to open my heart and hear it speak

it whispers great truth about who's real and who's fake,
guides me away from the selfish and who'll harbor me safe

who really cares and wants the best for me?
i start to quickly eliminate those that contradict what they preach

mother and father, relatives among friends, i often second guess
their motives and who i truly can depend

as time passes by and i fail and succeed, i notice those who
keep on cheering on the sides lines rooting for me

even random strangers who flash a smile while passing on the street,
something made them look my way and do a double take on me

at times my weight is heavy with regrets and recent faults
but i keep my head held high, to seek my purpose within the cause

one day ill set myself free, no longer trip and fall
i will unlock the secret of my life and attain the treasure
hidden behind the vault.

so let those who love me, do it
unconditionally with accepting joy and awe,
humble me to the helping hand and retract
my prideful claw

itching to scratch the surface of my lifelong destiny,
but at times i try way to hard,
i scratch until i bleed.

blood of my soul will pave the way to an answer that i seek
follow the trail of inner strength that will find
my fate to be.